...She will move mountains
"You carry so much love in your heart, give some to yourself"
My daughter started school this month, and as exciting as the whole process has been I've found myself having anxiety about her growing up so fast lately.
Having children in general can be terrifying. I can barely manage my own life some days so the idea of being 100% responsible for a little tiny beings life sometimes can leave me wanting to run in the opposite direction. I wouldn't ever actually run away though obviously, I put my big girl pants on and tackle each day the best I can for those two little kiddos, because that's exactly what they both deserve..... the best.
However when it comes to my daughter, I find raising her in the world we live in today is completely and utterly intimidating. Every mom wants to raise a strong, independent, confident, smart little girl; who can think for herself and make the right decisions. Who can guarantee that though? Today's society has taken so many steps forward when it comes to woman's rights, but at the same time still shares such a twisted version of what a girl should be. I remember when I was younger I was so self conscious, always comparing myself to other girls, following the latest trends all the time to please the people around me. I look back at that girl and I wish that grown up me could go back and share some advice with that self conscious version of me. I wish I could tell myself to be true to myself and to love me, the real me; not the me I felt I needed to be for other people, because a few years down the line none of those people would matter anymore, they wouldn't even be around, because people who can't accept you for you aren't friends at all and you would realize that soon enough.
I can't go back in time and teach myself those life lessons, but I hope I can teach my little Ayda them. I hope she grows up and never compares herself to all the current "it" girls or to any girls (or boys) at all. I hope she grows up and strives to be WHATEVER she wants to be, there is no such thing as a woman's job, just like there is no such thing as a mans job. There is absolutely nothing she cannot do if she truly wants to. It's a scary thing raising a little girl in a world that so largely promotes such a negative mold of what a girl should be, and I know as she grows up all the innocence she has now will slowly dwindle away. But if her innocence must go I hope it is replaced with strength; the strength to break the molds that have been engraved in little girls heads for much too long.
Most importantly I hope she grows up knowing that no matter the person she grows up to be, I will always love her.